Wait and See
"So, what's next?"
When asked this question for the first two months after I announced I was leaving I had no answer.
I literally had no idea!
Now, don't get me wrong, I was doing everything in my power to try and figure out what I should do next! I was going through career counseling exercises, I was reading books on finding one's calling, I was doing personality assessments out the wazoo, and I was meeting with wise, discerning people, not to mention praying a lot! Even with all of that effort, I felt blocked!
The best way I can describe it is that my future felt like a totally blurred picture. You can see there's something there, but you have no idea what it is.
At a birthday lunch in April one of my friends asked me if I had a word or phrase to capture the theme of my next year. I'd named themes of my life before, but I was at a loss when she asked me. Later, as I prayed about it I felt God speak "Wait and See."
What I've come to realize is this: This isn't just about a change in job. You see, a few years ago I told God that I wanted Him to take me deeper, that I wanted my trust to be without borders (cue Oceans). This right here is one of the ways He's answering that prayer. Sure at some point I'll have a new job, but what God desires from this change is that I would learn to trust Him in a new, deeper way. This change is to facilitate me trusting Jehovah-Jireh (The Lord will provide).
So, what's next?
I'm taking a sabbatical for a few months. Right now I'm hanging out in my hometown, Decatur, IL, with my parents and my dog (excuse me, my parents dog) getting some much needed rest and rejuvenation (accompanied by humidity and mosquitos). As for what's after that, well, you'll have to wait and see!
When asked this question for the first two months after I announced I was leaving I had no answer.
I literally had no idea!
Now, don't get me wrong, I was doing everything in my power to try and figure out what I should do next! I was going through career counseling exercises, I was reading books on finding one's calling, I was doing personality assessments out the wazoo, and I was meeting with wise, discerning people, not to mention praying a lot! Even with all of that effort, I felt blocked!
The best way I can describe it is that my future felt like a totally blurred picture. You can see there's something there, but you have no idea what it is.
At a birthday lunch in April one of my friends asked me if I had a word or phrase to capture the theme of my next year. I'd named themes of my life before, but I was at a loss when she asked me. Later, as I prayed about it I felt God speak "Wait and See."
What I've come to realize is this: This isn't just about a change in job. You see, a few years ago I told God that I wanted Him to take me deeper, that I wanted my trust to be without borders (cue Oceans). This right here is one of the ways He's answering that prayer. Sure at some point I'll have a new job, but what God desires from this change is that I would learn to trust Him in a new, deeper way. This change is to facilitate me trusting Jehovah-Jireh (The Lord will provide).
So, what's next?
I'm taking a sabbatical for a few months. Right now I'm hanging out in my hometown, Decatur, IL, with my parents and my dog (excuse me, my parents dog) getting some much needed rest and rejuvenation (accompanied by humidity and mosquitos). As for what's after that, well, you'll have to wait and see!
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